Happy 3rd Birthday my dear Angel Harry.
Mummy, Daddy, Lydia and Sebastien love you and miss you so very much. Toni brought 3 yellow balloons over for you to mark your special day today. Daddy made a chocolate cake and Lydia said you wanted it iced in blue with orange lettering - so that is what we did. All of your people were here for Easter dinner - cooked thanks to Auntie Kathleen and Uncle Gareth.
Today is a bittersweet day. A wonderful first Easter Sunday with your sweet baby brother, yet our longing for you to be with us in body, not only in spirit, is not diminished. How vast the space where you should be my little Prince. Where is my three year old, with his head of blond hair, racing through the house with his dinosaurs and cars? I still cannot reconcile that you were here and now you are not, all that has happened. Sebastien's presence fills us with immense, immense joy, yet he so clearly is not you, though he is very like you. I wondered how I would feel when he was born. I am once again overwhelmed with love for a new son. Yet his presence makes your absence more acute. There is no question that he is in any way a replacement for you. You are Harry and he is Sebastien. I adore and love each of you so completely as individual sons. I think I miss you all the more, or in a whole different way now that it is so clear that his arrival, an act of such pure love and joy and happiness, does not change our journey with you. It is another step in our life, but the joy we feel in his arrival does not change the grief we feel over your passing.
Ah my dear sweet Prince Harry. Mummy needs to sleep. Know that my love for you knows no bounds of space or time. Wishing you a very, very Happy 3rd Birthday.
Love Mum Mum Mum
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Hi Cynthia,
I found your blog one day when I googled the type of cancer that my son Degen and your son Harry both had. I am amazed at the similarities the two beautiful boys have had in their (entirely too short of a) journey in life.
I just wanted to say congratulation on the birth of Sebastian - what a beautiful wee boy. And, Happy Birthday to Harry! I hope my angel Degen was there to help celebrate! :-) And, thank you, reading some of your blog entries has really helped me, and I am so appreciative of that.
Kind regards,
Sarah
www.caringbridge.org/visit/degenmeyer
As always, Cynthia, beautifully put.
Happy Birthday Harry!
Siobhan.
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